You got issues

I want to thank you guys for your comments of support. I don't even know you guys and you have been supportive, it means a lot to know good people are in the world.

I'm feeling much more calm now knowing it's a boy. (fingers crossed) Shaun and I talked about some of our issues. I'm going to seek some counseling through work to talk about issues in my past and issues with depression. I want to have a healthy pregnancy and over all life. Some things have come up that I am having issues with.

My oldest sibling is Lori, she's my dad's from his first marriage. Then my brother Jeremy, and then my sister Katie. I'm the youngest out of 4. Two years ago this past June Shaun and I tied the knot. Lori and Katie were supposed to be in the wedding. Lori decided that she was going to come up with a whole bunch of reasons why I shouldn't marry the love of my life and Katie decided to jump on the band wagon. They decided to pack up and leave Missouri and move all the way to South Carolina the weekend of my wedding. Lori aired all of her feelings towards my husband and some about me and my mother on Facebook of all places. So, my husband went off on her, more to my defense than to his. He's the type that you can say anything to him about himself almost and you wont get a rise out of him. If you say something to him about me though... watch out.

So, they took off to South Carolina on the weekend that I got married. My brother was the only sibling I had at my wedding. Since then Lori and I have not mended our relationship. I'm not reaching out to her. I have forgiven her, but I don't really want her in my life. She is like poison. I don't want that negativity in my life. I love her.. but I'm not going to put myself through that just to have a relationship with her. Her and Katie had a falling out and they haven't had any contact in over a year. They now live in different areas of South Carolina. Katie and I have mended our relationship somewhat. I actually have more hard feelings towards Katie and I ever had towards Lori. Katie and I are 2 years apart. Lori and I are 18 years a part and I have always known that she is somewhat crazy. It didn't hurt me as bad for Lori to do what she did as it did for Katie to go along with her and leave me.

Anyway, Gloria, my sister in-law, recently sent me one of those screen shots of a post on Lori's Facebook that she made. It's her apologizing to Katie, Me, Mom and Dad and Jeremy and "his wife". Then it goes on to say some crap about how she's in school for massage therapy and that it's helping her with her issues from the past. How she never leaves church not in tears and that she's rededicating her life and wants us all to come to the ceremony.

Okay, I want to think that it's true and that she is really getting her life together... but I don't. I can't trust her. First of all, if she really meant it she shouldn't have put it on Facebook. I haven't moved and my number hasn't changed. In person is best but if that wasn't affordable then a phone call would have been better, but not Facebook. Second, you wronged my husband and don't care to mention him. Third, "his wife"? she has a name.

I think it's all for attention. I think that it's to get us back into her life so that she can start up her bullshit again. She hasn't gotten any attention from anyone by acting the way that she has so now she is trying a different tactic. I would like to think that God is working in her life and she found a way but I don't think that. She's a user. Gloria thinks that it's because she's so far in debt and her mother quit helping her so she has to reach out to someone. I could see that being the case, my parents just sold their house so she probably thinks they have a lot of money now. Which is hilarious because they don't, what they made from their house they have spent on an RV already so that they can travel, and a house in South Carolina so that Katie can have a house to live in since she can't make her own way in life. That's a totally different story though.