My father is an asshole.

08/16/2016

He is trying to control my life. He knows that I am flat broke from buying the things I needed ( and am almost out of again ) to fight this illness. He mocks me for having this illness, tells me I am insane, that its all in my head, that Im a hypochondriac, etc. Then, knowing that I have no money to even buy my own FOOD right now, he LITERALLY took the pack of cigarettes that I BOUGHT ( worked for ) and started giving me 4 of them a day. ( I KNOW THAT I NEED TO QUIT BUT IT HAS TO BE DONE BY ME. ) He now refuses to buy my Mt. Dew ( another thing I needed to wean of of ) I NEED CAFFEINE. I am sick. I am weak. I am being eaten alive. Literally. He refuses to buy me any of the nutritious food that I need. I AM 30 YEARS OLD FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. I can't take this stress. I am trying to heal, to survive if that is even possible! I do not know what to do. I need veggies. I need food. I need certain things, and he is trying to control me and I just can not take it. My head is still on my shoulders only by the grace of JESUS. I need His help NOW or I am not going to make it.