i did it holy crap

02/21/2014

i came out to my mom like, for real omg.
OMG i'm 26 and i'm still afraid to tell my mom stuff but i did it!

it was really dumb okay but we were in the car (long story why i had her car, not important)
and i was driving back to my house and she was asking me about my sister's boyfriend.

and i went "why don't you ever ask me about my stuff?"
her: "well, do you have a boyfriend?"
"not a BOYfriend." (kinda forced her hand there)
"a girlfriend?"
big pause
"yeah, sorta"
and then I told her it was long-distance and then that it was Ana, and that i didn't want to tell her because it was weird, and she said
"It's not weird, Aubrey." and seriously what a fucking LOAD off my chest.

I mean, I told her that I still like dudes, but I'm just not interested in dating them. so IDK if she understands the bisexual thing (that was what worried me most, because IDK if that even occurs to her as an option). I don't care tbh. I just want her to know that I'm in a relationship and I'm happy and that Ana is who makes me happy.

AND THEN on Wednesday Ana and I had our first skype video chat in like a month and HO-LY FUCK. It gets harder every time because we both grin like idiots at each other. It's not even what we say, it's just getting to look at her in real time. shitfuck i'm so fucked.

She did this thing where she was coloring something on her desk, so she was looking down, and i was like watching her, and then she'd peek up and smirk at me and oh my god what i wouldn't give to have kissed her right there.

from tomorrow it will be three more weeks
AHHHH I HAVEN'T EVEN PACKED YET.